How are you?

Every close friend of mine has at numerous points, queried me for replying their “how are you?” with “I’m tired”

I’ve always wondered at what exactly I’m tired of, I knew it wasn’t physical tiredness, it was an internal tiredness.

I listened to someone talk and he made me realise what exactly I am tired of.

I am tired of social media… especially that bird app and the green app, I’m tired of being exposed to numerous sentimental, bias and fallacious reasoning. I’m tired of fighting for my own space on my own page to put up my own content.

I’m tired of majority of my own gender, who make everything a competition, I’m wearing this clothe or dress because that’s all I have/that’s what I feel like wearing we don’t have to compete for who looks more pretty,or who’s best dressed.

I’m tired of the fakeness of everything, come on,when did we allow society define us, Put pressure on us and take our sanity away?

I face the above mentioned and more every day. I’ve to decide what my response will be, an action, or a reaction? and by the end of the day, I’m tired and drained.

I try not to reply with I’m tired again tho,cause explaining why you’re tired, is a lotta work in itself. I haven’t found a remedy, but I realised that whenever I take deep breath and tell God exactly how I feel, I’m able to be at peace and exclude myself from all that mental pressure.

♥️ &💡

Mope

Insecurities

Hello, how was your week? I’ve had a very stressful week. Very, very, I wish I can convert the stress into money.

Anyway, today imma be talking about canceling insecurities.

Yup, the almighty Ada that seems like she’s got everything figured out, I have a truck load of insecurities.

These insecurities make it seem like I have a lot of standards and boundaries, cause yo I’ve got to protect my sanity.

I like to think myself the world’s best hype woman, cause I love encouraging people to push and be the best they can, I show them their hard work from my point of view and encourage more perseverance and hope. But when it comes to me, I am very hard on myself

I beat myself up for not meeting up with my plans and all. It takes people to remind me of my own words to them.

I’ve learned tho, and I’m still learning. I’ve learned that your fears do not define you, continuous fear tho can eventually become reality.

I’ve also learned, that sometimes you need a break. You need to just chill and relax, everything will be fine… Time is never late.

I learned that, all of these fears are just in my mind. I just imagine them a lot and as I constantly dwell on those thoughts, the kind of became real and hindered me from doing a lot of things. So I learned

I’ve learned to talk to myself, calm myself and remind myself that I am worth it, I deserve all things good, and I’m total a human and I need to live in the moment too.

A lot of the time, I just let go and relax…. I need my life to be long and lengthy.

♥️ and 💡